Insignificant

我觉得很辛苦，但又无法向任何人倾诉。我的烦恼对任何人来说都是一种微不足道的烦恼，但是它又好像冤鬼缠身。儿女私情在现阶段是要不得的，更何况是因此而烦恼。

为了他而伤心，大家都说不值得。但是，我就像一只无头苍蝇一头栽进了这个令我无法自拔的陷阱。令我伤心的，是不管我做什么，他都不理会。在他的眼里，我到底算什么？一个随传随到的人，而且可有可无的，对吗？

我还记得他对我说过的一切，但是那一切至今都还无法兑现。我没有在发脾气，而是不开心。你有了那群新朋友之后，把我给摆在哪里了？

从开心，到失望，到伤心，然后绝望。

I don't know what to expect from now on. Should I continue to wait for you, or should I just let go? It's easier said than done. I always say I will let go, but turn out? I held on for about 4 to 5 months. Everyone tells me that it's not worth to wait for you, because this action or feeling will never reciprocate. Maybe this will become one sided, or has it become one sided since months ago?

Ever since you have your G6 clique, have you ever give a damn to others around you? Everything, or almost everything you do will be with them. I'm always the last on your list. Even if I'm not, you gave me this feeling, like I'm just the spare one... I don't know what you're thinking. Do you still remember what you've said to me? I think you don't. Or maybe you don't want to...

I'm not trying to throw tantrums here. I just don't understand why. And I know that no matter how I change, nothing is going to change for me. The reason I'm still holding on, is that, I can't bring myself to let go...

Can I talk to someone? ): But I know everyone has their own troubles, and I can't possibly bother them and add on to what troubles them. I just hope that I could be a good listening ear, being the one who help to comfort my dear friends, instead of being their burden, for I know the reason why I feel unhappy is not at all important...