AMANDA LEE CHEW XUE WEI!

你不了解我

2012-02-27T23:10:00.001+08:00

你們不了解我. 我真的真的好辛苦. 為什麽要這樣對我? 我做錯了嗎?

我十八了...

2011-12-17T00:39:00.001+08:00

我剛過了十八歲生日。生日是應該開心的，對吧？但為何我不覺得開心呢。這十八對我來說，一點也沒有意義。

不舍，难舍.

2011-08-29T00:05:00.003+08:00

在那阴冷、灰暗的走道上，我看见一个熟悉的影子. 是，那就是你. 那就是一声不响就离开了我的你. 在你脸上的笑容，与我内心的伤痛形成了明显的对比. 原来你已经把我忘了. 这是现实，我迟早都必须去面对.

曾经与你有过的承诺，现已成了泡影．我只能告诉我自己，我其实并不认识你．

那个人越走越靠近我．在这黑暗的走道上，它的轮廓也越来越清晰．啊，是一位挺结实的男生... "你最近还好吗?" 我被他的问题给愣住了. 我认识他吗? 似曾相识... 但是又有点陌生.

"请问, 我认识你吗? "

我... 真的认识你吗?

I don't know, is this what we call "regrets"?

2011-06-07T22:27:00.005+08:00

I would be kidding if I told you I don't care at all. I can smile to you, but you won't know how deeply hurt I am. I thought we were good friends, or even best friends, but what did you do to me? I never believed what others told me, but I know I was trying to escape from it all along. I tried to protect you last time, when they told me what you did to them. Looks like I have to believe them now, but a few years have past... Tell me that all this is not true, please.

Friends that I used to be close to, now not close anymore, all after you became close to them. I've heard what you told some of them before. But, they actually believed. All of you are like ignoring me. Friend F refuse to discuss with me a plan that I'm trying to bring up or even refuse to talk to me, but the next moment, F is smiling happily with her and talking about everything. Friend L seems to have something against me, not talking to me out of a sudden, but both of you got closer and closer. I hope all this are not because of you... I hope.

I really wish I've gone to AC. I don't care if I may not like it after I go there, but it's definitely a wrong choice to come to NY. I won't be friends with you if I didn't come here, right? Let me out... Out if this freaking place. I don't wanna stay here for even one more second...

I really don't know what is the definition for friends. If it means people who don't trust you and will leave you after hearing things from others, I have a handful of them. This, is what we call friends. I hate to get to know new friends. Every time I have a friend whom I'm close with, you'll suddenly be close to them and I'll lose that friend soon... That's a cycle which repeated for countless of times. I don't wanna go through this anymore, but when will it ever stop? Please, just stop it. Please.

没始没终...

2011-05-22T21:05:00.003+08:00

在中学时，因为我的华文老师，我立志以后当一位华文老师。但到了初级学院，我不再想当一名老师了。这里的老师令我对老师的印象完全改观。他们不关心学生，而且教书不在于让我们明白，而是想及早把书教完然后走人。虽然不是全部的老师都是这样，但教我的老师都是。

不喜欢老师，讨厌他们。怎么不是自己的错都硬要说“对不起，是我错了。”读书明明就有尽力，但就是考不到好成绩。老师都对我说“这次又没有读书了？”好吧，就说我没有读好了，反正他们都认定我没有读，不管我怎么说他们都说我在骗人。我不喜欢他们质疑的口吻，不喜欢他们不相信我。

有一位老师整天对我说：“划什么龙舟？划来划去还是一样不会赢得。你倒不如花多一点时间去读书。看你平时都不用功读书，学一学 XX 同学，看她那么用功。不要再那么吊儿郎当了。” 怎么了？我也有在读书，为什么还那么说我呢？而当我在最近的考试中考获不错的成绩时，他却对我说：“什么？怎么可能？我想我要回去从新算一算分数了。”

每当他这样对我说时，我都会很不开心。老师不是应该鼓励学生的吗？如果你觉得他在开玩笑的话，你错了。没有考到好成绩时，他说我不读书。考到好成绩时，他又质疑。每次面对这些话，我只能无奈地笑着，但我的内心其实很难过。你可知道我为了你所说的这一番话而难过流泪吗？但是，你还是重复地对我说了那一番话。我永远。。。永远也不会忘记他所说的话。

老师真的是这样的吗？对他们来说，这样是他们每一天的乐趣吗？我不想当老师了。做老师，根本就不是在培养与教育学生的。我讨厌老师。

真的好后悔来到这间学校。认识到一些不应该认识的人，而且老师不像老师。真想快点离开这个学校。我快受不了了...

Thankyou for always demoralizing me. But, sorry, these words didn't make me fight harder. You all just make me feel useless. I really hate you all... really. Yes, I'm a stupid student, but it doesn't mean that I don't have any feelings. Yes, I scored well fo PSLE, but JC is not as easy as 1 plus 1. Stop using my PSLE scores to compare with my results now! Just trying to beat around the bush to tell me that I'm stupid yea?

But you never listen...

2011-05-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

Reasons? Tell me what are the reaons. Even You're like this, so what should I do now? I thought we're friends? You told me we are but what is the meaning of this? Talk to me only when she's not replying you, and when she replied, you talk to me. I'm not being sensitive this time because I saw it with my own eyes. If I talk to you ever again, 我就是乌龟王八!

Ok, nobody understands this, and I can't say it out loud. GRR. Damn it. Ok, stop whining and get my ass to the study table...

Insignificant

2011-03-16T22:03:00.003+08:00

我觉得很辛苦，但又无法向任何人倾诉。我的烦恼对任何人来说都是一种微不足道的烦恼，但是它又好像冤鬼缠身。儿女私情在现阶段是要不得的，更何况是因此而烦恼。

为了他而伤心，大家都说不值得。但是，我就像一只无头苍蝇一头栽进了这个令我无法自拔的陷阱。令我伤心的，是不管我做什么，他都不理会。在他的眼里，我到底算什么？一个随传随到的人，而且可有可无的，对吗？

我还记得他对我说过的一切，但是那一切至今都还无法兑现。我没有在发脾气，而是不开心。你有了那群新朋友之后，把我给摆在哪里了？

从开心，到失望，到伤心，然后绝望。

I don't know what to expect from now on. Should I continue to wait for you, or should I just let go? It's easier said than done. I always say I will let go, but turn out? I held on for about 4 to 5 months. Everyone tells me that it's not worth to wait for you, because this action or feeling will never reciprocate. Maybe this will become one sided, or has it become one sided since months ago?

Ever since you have your G6 clique, have you ever give a damn to others around you? Everything, or almost everything you do will be with them. I'm always the last on your list. Even if I'm not, you gave me this feeling, like I'm just the spare one... I don't know what you're thinking. Do you still remember what you've said to me? I think you don't. Or maybe you don't want to...

I'm not trying to throw tantrums here. I just don't understand why. And I know that no matter how I change, nothing is going to change for me. The reason I'm still holding on, is that, I can't bring myself to let go...

Can I talk to someone? ): But I know everyone has their own troubles, and I can't possibly bother them and add on to what troubles them. I just hope that I could be a good listening ear, being the one who help to comfort my dear friends, instead of being their burden, for I know the reason why I feel unhappy is not at all important...

Kay. Thanks. Bye.

2011-03-15T11:00:00.002+08:00

We can all feel that A levels is near. We all know what we're going to face... Yes, it's a tough year ahead...

It's the March holidays, but this one week seems so short. Study for block test and there's training and competition. Hope that things will turn out well for us! MR500 is on Saturday... All the best eh!

A mixture of sad, happy, sweet, bitter, guilt... I don't like to tell others how I feel... If you keep probing, I'll just choose to run away. If I tell you how I feel, it means that I really trust you, my friend.

4 months.... Still trying to let go. This is getting too long, too hard... I know you don't make promises. I just have to forget about everything you said before because you will not remember them, so I don't have to either... You are hanging out with them so often that you have already forgotten my existence. You look at me smiling to you, but you don't know how much I'm suffering within... I wish I could walk up to you and tell you what I'm thinking, but apparently I can't. I know I don't mean anything to you anymore, but you left abruptly, not even warning me. You continue with your own life with them, but I'm still stranded at the starting point, alone...

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change and maybe I'm not ready

无言以对...

2011-02-01T23:18:00.003+08:00

It's a new year! So long since I last posted.

不知道为什么，突然想通过文字抒发内心的不愉快.

你忽冷忽热的态度令我苦恼. 我不知道你的心里在想什么, 我也知道你不会告诉我. 经过了那么久, 我学会了等. 等你来联络我, 而不是我主动去找你. 我知道，如果你要见我的话就会来找我。如果你没来找我，我也明白. 有时候，我会想自己是不是只是一个代替品而已. 但就算是如此，你也不会告诉我吧.

有时我会对这个世界感到厌倦. 我不是世上最倒霉的人，但是我为什么老是遇到不顺心的事. 埋怨无补于事，但有何途径能让我发泄一番? 嗨... 这还真让我想起“呐喊”. 为什么你们都觉得我每一次都在无理取闹，但有哪几个真正了解我呢? 可能一个都没有吧. 心中的话都卡在喉咙，无法说出口. 这种感觉真让我感到郁闷. 你可不可以多了解我一些? 我觉得我好像傻瓜一样，在一旁默默地看着你，但我对你来说可能连路旁的一棵树也不如.

这几天，窗外的雨似乎都停不下来. 天，是不是和我一样，想用泪水来告诉大家自己其实并不快乐? 雨，下了三天三夜，但我所留下的泪水何止如此? 怎么了? 我和你的距离越来越大. 你就有如天空的云，看得见但又摸不透. 望着你，我内心有种说不出口的痛. 那是心痛还是痛恨，我也搞不清楚.

可能... 也许... 你厌倦了吧.

你，
一会儿看我，一会儿看云.
我觉得，
你看我是很远，你看云是很近.

怎么，每个人都是这样? 我，只是个女生. 一个普通的女生. 我没有你们想象的那么坚强，所以不要选择放弃我. 和其他绽放的花朵比起来，我可能只是一根不起眼的草，但请不要任意的践踏我的人生... 请不要选择放弃我... 我不喜欢那种被抛弃的感觉. ):

如果有一天，你选择像他们一样放弃我，请不要像他们那样回头... 那只会让我更难受.

我累了

2010-11-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

Why am I still hanging on? I told myself to give up, but it doesn't seem as easy as I think. Xuewei, where's the tiny bit of dignity that you've promised to reserve? You lost it.

When you said you will find a day, I really thought "Yes, things may turn out fine eh?". Will this day ever come?

Don't dare to look into your eyes. Don't dare to walk past you. I look at the floor whenever I see you in sight, I just don't wanna look at you. Any thing related to you just makes me feel like I'm just plain stupid.

Part of me don't wish you to give up on me, but another part of me knows that to you, I'm just a nobody.

I know I'm pathetic, I don't need anymore of these.

I swear.

2010-11-17T00:01:00.001+08:00

I swear I'm going crazy.

After a year... I think...

2010-11-04T18:30:00.004+08:00

Last lap for PW. Just feel like getting it over and done with... Jiayou ba!

Yesterday, I met up with a friend whom I've never seen for a year. I find it amazing, when the feeling is like, "Oh, I'm meeting up with an old friend." A simple dinner, and then a movie. The feeling wasn't distant at all. Maybe this is what we called "Old friends". We may not meet up often, but even when we're only hanging out once in a while, we can still joke and fool around. Just felt comfortable around him. Thanks friend! (:

During the meet up yesterday, he was the one who made me feel that I've changed. Yes, I've changed after everything that happened in this one year... You may just laugh at me, but I thought I became more mature. I no longer handle things as rashly, and I somehow learned to handle my emotions? I've grown up in some way, after falling for so many times.

Struggling so much with whether to talk to you again. I did it in the end, and thanks for that msn conversation that night. You apologised, I know, but maybe... I still don't know how to face you. I also hope that we can be friends like how we were in the past, but I still can't forget what happened... How devastated I was then. I'm moving on... Thanks for clarifying! Definitely, we will be friends again.

To be honest, I really hate this year that I've went through. I regret getting into Nanyang JC. I regret meeting some people. I wouldn't be suffering this much if not for these decisions I've made. I feel suffocated. I feel restless. I just regret meeting you guys.

However, the joy and laughter that I had in NYJC is not negligible...

When you feel like there's nothing you could do to help...

2010-11-02T19:39:00.002+08:00

Now that we know how we did for our promos, PW is another round of torture... I don't like OP, but no matter what, still have to do it. Regatta is now over... Although we didn't win anything, we did try our best. We will achieve our goal next time!

A string of weird happenings recently, and I find my life like a drama like those on TV. Gosh. This is killing me. Don't understand? Cos, maybe you don't know me that well. Sometimes, it's not as simple as what we see. Okay, I just don't understand you enough.

I just find this so complicated. I used to think that it's as simple as 1 + 1... Nah. I don't know what you are thinking, and maybe you don't know how I feel. I feel so tired... This feeling is just plain awful. Waiting for something that never comes... Staring at that dumb chocolate for the whole day... Omg. Just kill me -.-

Can I go back to kindergarten? When all I were interested in was only ABC and 123...

Don't like to see you. Don't come near me. Don't come and find me anymore. I don't wanna listen.

I said. Go away!

2010-10-26T22:23:00.001+08:00

Stop it. You are making me paraniod. I don't dare to go home early... I don't wanna see you there anymore. I said, Leave me alone...

I think. NO.

2010-10-19T18:31:00.003+08:00

You really shocked me. I know you'll see all these...

My answer to you is no. I don't wanna go through all these anymore. We had great memories together. I know it too. But, you're the one who tore the wonderful picture apart. You're the one who hurt me so deep that I can't stop crying every night. You found someone better then, and what was I at that point of time? Nothing. Now that she left you, you came to me, telling me all these. Sorry. I can't accept it anymore. You're trying to put back the photo that you've torn, but there will always be a crack in between it which cannot be mended...

Please. Stop torturing me anymore... I can't take it. Just leave me alone. I used 4 months to get over it. I don't wanna waste another 4 months anymore. I don't want the cycle to repeat itself again... ):

I know you'll see these... Please just leave me alone.

xuewei feels tired...

2010-10-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

I feel tired. So tired, of everything. What's the purpose of me here in the first place? I don't know. I just feel like shutting down.

Why am I here for? Can anyone tell me? ):

People! Be happy...

2010-10-17T08:53:00.002+08:00

Why do people around me feels sad these few days? Cheer up okay! Think of happier stuffs or eat chocolates or sweets or simply scream it out somewhere. Do anything to make you happier! It hurts to see people around me feel sad...

I know it's easier to say it than doing it. I'm sad too. Friends come and go, but mine seem to be especially fast. This year, I could really feel it. A week ago, we could still be talking to each other and smsing like we're super good friends. But a week later, we seem to be like complete strangers... Sometimes, I just ask myself why is this happening to me. But it seem to be only me. Maybe it's my attitude or the way I treat my friends. I shall change, but I don't know what's wrong.

Dear friends, I'm sorry. ): Maybe it's right to let them go... As long as you guys are feeling happier at where you are and who you are with, I shall be happy too, looking at the smiles on your faces. But if you're feeling unhappy, I'll be there to listen to you and to cheer you up!

I just want my friends to know that, being happy is a blessing. No matter what, smile okay! Cheer up and move on... Don't ever look back. When we smile, we light up the world of the people around us. But when we feel down, some around us feel sad too.

People! Must be happy okay! (:

XUEWEI. Just die la. -.-

2010-10-15T21:10:00.002+08:00

I failed to the max as a friend... Unable to understand them and always doing something wrong or something. Maybe it's these factors which explains why friends I met always come and go...

God. I promise to be a good girl.
Please let all the people around me to be happy. I have a friend who is always sad because of some issue. Please let this friend of mine smile everyday and forget about all the unhappy things! When I see them happy, I'll feel happy too...
Please don't let any friends leave my life, I can't take it anymore. I want to stop crying. I want to move on. But I just cannot accept this fact. Please, I don't wanna lose any of them...

Really, I promise to be a good girl from now on... Can you make my wishes come true? ):

Serious?

2010-10-13T22:57:00.001+08:00

Never cried so hard for a long time alr. Promises are meant to be broken. Yes, friends? I don't know.

Is it me?

2010-10-13T21:14:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to enjoy myself after promos, but... why am I... ): I promised, just one day. But one day doesn't seem to be enough. I got out of my bed this morning, telling myself to cheer up. It doesn't work somehow. I went to school alone, walked to school alone. I was thinking if you'll pop out somewhere. Of course, that didn't happen.

School today was nothing much, just dreading. I just keep thinking no matter where I go. In the hall, in the canteen, in the atrium, at the fountain, on the bus, bedok reservoir, on the MRT, even now when I'm sitting on my bed... I'm glad there's still db girls. Their laughter and jokes made my day.

I was staring at my phone since last night, thinking that I may receive something from you, but no. I expected it. Do you still remember what you've said? It's my turn to be speechless... I doubt you remember anything... I'm just Nothing.

有人可以告诉我, 是我做错了什么吗? 为什么他这样对我?

Just one day...

2010-10-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

I promise to be a good girl... Let me be sad for a day. Just a day....

Never felt so useless before. Smile! Stop wasting water on others.

Okay. I promise. Just one day... Just one...

It's end of promos!

2010-10-12T22:13:00.003+08:00

Yup, it's the end of promos! But okay, I know I didn't do well. Hope that I can promote to J2 next year! I'm rather screwed up for Chemistry paper one yesterday. No time to finish! I think the teachers just enjoy seeing students retain every year... Physics killed me today too! ):

Proud to announce that I finished 6 hours of Chinese lit in total! 5 essays, 1 composition, 2 compres and one summary! I think my hand broke after all the writing... General paper was disastrous. Chemistry and physics were murderers. Maths trained my skipping skills! Omg. ):

Although promos is over, I'm not in the mood to party. I know the reason, but I have no where to express my thoughts. GAHHHH. I know I shouldn't let it affect my mood during promos. But. Okay, it's over anyways!

I'm always being so over-sensitive. But at least, I felt it that way. Nah. I don't know how to say it. But. GRR. Shall not say it here ba. ): Friends come and go. Maybe brothers too?

There's still school tmr, but I wonder what will it be about... Hope that it won't be time wasting. Training tmr! Omg. (:

雪薇要开心...

STILL in the midst of promos...

2010-10-11T20:12:00.003+08:00

I feel liberated after taking 3 hours of Chinese Lit paper this morning, as it promos was over! But sadly, that's not the case -.-

You make me feel so paranoid. ):

Last paper tmr!

Ohh. Emm. Gee.

2010-10-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

In the midst of Promos now and I'm drained! I don't wanna fail. I don't wanna retain. ): Trying my very best! Chinese lit is taking my life away. ): So many things to memorise! All the best people! Promote together!

I need to talk. I... want to talk. Listen, I've got something to say...

Shall post after promos...

Finally some normal updates (:

2010-09-03T21:22:00.002+08:00

There's only around 30 more days to promos! Omgz. Must study hard already! Jiayou everyone! I hope I get promoted ):

I really like my class now! 1022. Although we don't really talk much everyday (when apparently I'm the one who always crap alot), and there's small cliques here and there, but we can still come together as a class to carry out activities! Cool? I think so. But as the CT rep, I think I'm kind of a failure. I didn't organise a proper outing for the class before. Must work on class bonding after promos and PW! But most importantly, we must get promoted. STUDY HARD!

Night study almost everyday, but it's really productive most of the time! Especially when there's people around to clear my doubts (: Hehe. Tests coming up! Chinese lit paper 1 and Chemistry. I swear I WILL study!

Just one more month. One more month of hard work = no retain! JIAYOU!

Sounds so self-motivating. I think I shall kick the habit of crapping and being such a joker. LOL.

I've learnt to let go. That's why I'm picking up myself and walking back to the ending point. All by myself, and I'm proud of it (:

Pressing the refresh button.

2010-08-28T19:07:00.002+08:00

xuewei, not worth it. Really, it's not worth it.

Tell me the reason.

2010-08-20T19:12:00.003+08:00

When I was unhappy, I wish you knew.

I think it was my fault. Maybe this is Karma... When I'm serious about it, you just don't give a damn. This time, I'm serious.

My fault for even thinking about it. I just don't feel like looking at you. Each time I do so, I could feel myself crumbling. Just... don't appear in front of me.

Regret.

2010-08-10T08:26:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't have told you, I shouldn't even think about it in the first place. Excuses. Excuses. Just full of excuses. You and him, aren't you all the same? I was still telling myself "Maybe both of you might be different" , when I told you about him. In the end, you all are just of the same kind.

I really waited when you asked me to. You make me feel damn stupid now because they were just lies. I think you don't even remember what you've said!

I may be a good target to joke with, but this doesn't mean that I don't have any emotions. I'm still a girl, no matter how I put up a strong front. I will still breakdown, I will still cry. Can't you just think twice when you say something? Have you ever thought about how I feel? ): I'M A HUMAN, NOT A TOY!

Crying myself to sleep every night... Just because I've fallen in love with someone I shouldn't have. Maybe they were right. It's just not worth it. ):

Amanda. Smile.

我的心, 深深伤过却不会忘.

2010-08-09T21:21:00.004+08:00

我终于明白你在想什么了. 为什么你不可以坦白地告诉我呢?

In the first place, I knew they were all excuses, but I just don't wanna accept it. Trying hard to accept it now, but I just can't! I want you to tell me, instead of me guessing. But I guess you've already forgotten my existence. It's just so insignificant yea?

Crying so hard that I feel like sleeping forever and never wake up. Dreams never come true because they are just dreams. It just hurts me so much whenever I see you, whenever I hear your voice... So near yet so far...

It's just... Me.

2010-08-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

So it's you and your lies again...

I don't wanna cry because of you anymore. I don't wanna be upset because of you anymore. I don't wanna keep sliding my phone, hoping to see your sms anymore... I think. I had enough.

I realised how hard this is but I'm just not learning from my lessons after what happened 2 years ago. I need to look forward. I need to lead my own life. I wanna be happy. I wanna smile everyday. I wanna get you out of my mind. But... I realised that I really can't.

Every step that we take determines where we will go. But, why am I walking backwards everytime?

Yea, I think... I love you.

2010-07-18T13:51:00.004+08:00

I don't know how this started, but what makes me feel this way is really... weird? Everytime I see you, you make my heart skip a beat. I'm always waiting for a reply whenever we text, but most of the time, there is none. I don't know if I should reply whenever you text, because I'm afraid that I won't get one back. You make me wonder, if this is just all one sided, and now, I really think that I'm the one being so dumb. I knew the lies that you've told me, because it's just so coincidentally that whenever you lie to me, I always get to find out the truth unknowingly. I know clearly that you don't feel the same way as I do, so why am I still waiting? Just because... I love you. It has been so long since I had this feeling, and I've been asking myself if this is all true. Do I really love you? Hmm... Yes, I do. This is why I'm always being such a dumbass, waiting for a reply which will never come back to me...

This feeling is so familiar... 2 years ago, isn't it like this too?

What is this?!

2010-07-08T21:16:00.002+08:00

Argh!!! I really cannot stand it anymore. -.-

The school told us that there will be a new timetable this term and I was really looking forward to it because my timetable for the past 2 terms was disastrous! Almost everyday for week A and B, I have 730am lessons, and EVERYDAY, my lessons ends after 4! Mostly 430pm or even 530pm. I thought the timetable for this term may be better since, if I'm not wrong, someone feedback on the hectic timetable that some of us have! But today, first thing when I switched on my laptop in school, I went to the school website to download my timetable. Guess what! The timetable is still the same! WHAT THE EFF-YEW-SEE-KAU?!?!?!

Seriously, I had enough of this timetable. I wake up so early in the morning to travel from Jurong to Bishan. I reach home at around 7 plus or 8pm. The view that I have when I leave home and when I reach home from school are exactly the same! AS DARK. What the fuckkkkk.

I want to cry already la!!!!!! When will this ever end?!?!?!?!

Welcome to JC!

2010-07-07T17:49:00.002+08:00

So far after exams, I've been going to Orchard for these few days. Watching movie and shopping with friends! Eating dinner, and much more chit chat sessions. (:

Getting back Midyear exam results this week. First thing in the morning, I saw U. Yea, U as in U grade. I didn't pass a single paper that I got back today! Cool? NO IT'S NOT. ): So now, I'll have to work harder. Ya, I can say it but as if I will do it? Haha. Okay. Will try. TRY.

This week is like PW week for my school. Having PW everyday, and have to stay till 5pm! The worse thing is that the day starts at 730am! Omg, this is hell. Just let me die -.- I live in Jurong, my school is Bishan. I think I'll keep repeating this everyday. Hehe.

So I shall just go and do my Written Report right? ):

Where is my bed of roses? Without thorns...

We've got life.

2010-07-03T12:48:00.002+08:00

So this is what JC is all about! Midyears is finally over. It's the first time I really really really think I'll fail every single subject. The major reason, I think, is that I really never study hard enough! At least 2 weeks of the June holidays was spent playing! But now that all the papers are over, let's party! (:

Last paper was yesterday! Went out in the evening. Watched Day and Knight in Plazasing with some Dragonboat friends. I was laughing throughout the movie, because it's seriously, very entertaining. Went around the area to look for a place to eat, and we ended up in a Macdonald! Cool right. Hehe. We risked our lives to cross the road, and intended to watch world cup somewhere but plan failed. LOL. So some went home, and the above 18 guy (HAHA) and some others continued the night at Clarke Quay. A well spent night (:

What's.... Forget it.

2010-06-11T16:42:00.002+08:00

This June holidays, I've been kind of slacking! Didn't really study much. Haha. I admit. -.- I just came back from LEP camp. We stayed over at sports school, which is a really cool school! Look at their facilities, like, oh my god. That swimming pool is just too attractive. LOL. It wasn't a fun camp, just that the speaker, an author as well, was really interesting!

It's time for me to study, midyears is coming! I know it. Haha. Going back to Malaysia next week! Kind of excited. And I can spend my time studying there! NO INTERNET that's why. (: Must pay for it. -.- I promised my grandpa to treat them to a sumptuous meal! I think I'll just turn into a big fat pig, because my grandma really cook well (:

Okay, start studying! Later. HAHA! After all, it's holidays, right? At least I finished all my homework already!

I miss.... You.

Love you!

2010-06-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

Studied in school this morning. Quite productive I think. Haha.

Went to Vivo to meet up with Mewleng and Xinyi! As usual, late!!!! Haha. But never mind, we're friends (: Went to Candy Empire to buy something. Ate dinner at superdog, and took alot of peektures! (: Watched Shrek in 3D and ate popcorns! They are really kids man, watch cartoon. But I enjoyed it though (: Went to walk walk and home! I love it man (: We shall have more meet ups soon! Love you lovelies... See you guys on Friday! Yes yes, Sylvia on friday too! All the blur sotongs unite! Can't wait...

Going to ISLE chalet tomorrow. Abit out of place, but. Haha. I know I'll enjoy it with that bunch of jokers! I miss ISLE. ):

Please. Don't let what happened 2 years ago repeat itself. I'm... scared.

Long awaited...

2010-05-29T22:48:00.002+08:00

After sososososososo long, I'm finally here to update my blog!

The past month was rather happening for me. Not very good stuffs though. And Thursday was GP midyear! I really hope I can pass, though most of us think that we'll die in paper 2. Hope. Had Dragonboat chalet on Thursday and Friday. J2s officially stepped down! I really miss rowing with them...

Holidays! Finally here. I know that I should be studying most of the time, since midyears is going to be right after the holidays, but I really one to have some time with my friends! Especially Xinyi, Sylvia and many more. Anywhere will be fine! Study, movie, shopping, playing, talking, huggies... People, Let's go out together!

I'm going to malaysia on the 3rd week of holidays! Finally going back to visit my grandparents. (: Although the ride back is really very long. But I think it's gonna be worthwhile because I get to eat my waipo's nice nice home cooked food!

LEP camp next next week. I really don't feel like going. It's like a waste of time. But the thought of the scholarship, okay, I go. -.- But I really think that the scholarship like nothing one lor. -.-

XINYI! I REALLY HAVE LOADS OF THINGS TO TALK TO YOU! MEET UP SOON OKAY? LOVE YOU TTM! (:

(:

2010-04-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM YINGYING!
You're finally 17! Good luck for NAPFA ok! And we must really go out together soon! Although we're in the same JC, we seldom get to talk to each other! I really miss you being my table mate. Remember, we spent 40 nights together! (:

Love you loads and enjoy your day!

Holidays!

2010-03-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

Yay! Holidays is almost here! At least there's no lessons now. These 2 days are modular training! The 2 talks that I attended today are damn boring! Haiz. Hope that the talk tomorrow will be much better. I have in-line skating tomorrow! The last time I skate was 2 months ago! Hope that it will be interesting! (:

There will be Dragonboat camp over the weekends! Heard from the seniors that it's quite tough. I shall Jiayou! Everyone jiayou okay! We can endure through the camp! Some people said that I became darker already! Omg, only after a few trainings and I am darker now!

I have 2 CCAs now! I'm now officially in ISLE China. International Service Learning Expedition (China). But actually I wanted India, but never mind. Haha (: Two hectic CCA! Hope that I can manage my things well, with my 4 H2 subjects.

I think the teachers in JC are eccentric. Like my CLL teacher, damn weird la. So here is the story. I wanted to take part in an external Chinese language examination and he handed me a form to be returned back to him along with the fees on 10 March, 230pm outside the staffroom, which was yesterday. I did tell him that I want to reconsider! So if I never find him means that I am not going. But he actually called me, and I can't pick up the phone because I was at training! Guess what, he actually confronted me today during the modular training, with his fierce expression and tone, asking me why didn't I go find him today After I told him that I am not going to take part in that exam, he just walked away. I don't know what's wrong with him you see! I guess it's partly my fault? But. Aiya, never mind. It just seem to be my fault every time.

Life recently isn't going smoothly for me at all. I actually find it hard to juggle between certain things. I feel like talking to someone, but I just couldn't say what I wanna say. The words are coming out, but stuck somewhere near my throat. -.-

I just feel so out of place and why am I always not in the picture? Was it just your excuse? Or you just find me when you need me?

BUSY

2010-03-07T18:48:00.005+08:00

Didn't know that JC life can be so hectic! Taking 4 H2 subjects isn't an easy task, and I find it rather difficult to cope. Nevertheless, I'll persevere (: So many tests next week! But actually, I'm most worried about my Chinese Lit. Really hope that I can understand everything soon. Haha.
I changed my guitar teacher! Because of the stupid timetable which clashed with my guitar lesson -.- I think my current guitar teacher is rather cool (: Hope to have much fun while learning from him! (:

My CCA is Dragonboat! When I tell others, they all went like "HUH?!" Don't huh me! Because I'm really joining. Haha. Hope that I can endure through the initiation camp next week! (: Training is 4 times per week! Monday, Wednesday, Saturday and Sunday. So here goes all my weekends! Time for studying is now much lesser, so I shall really be disciplined to fininsh my work and study dilligently. LOL.

AND OF COURSE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI!
I love you and I really miss you piggy! We haven't talked to each other for like ages! Please please please meet up soon okay? I know I'm always the one who is forever busy, BUT YOU TOO! Haha. SEE YOU SOON OKAY? (:

Love you <3

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2010-02-16T18:47:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! And Happy Valentines'! (:
The CNY celebration in Nanyang was short. We were dismissed at 9am which was a good thing! Went back to Nanhua with NYJCians. So many NJ people there! Didn't really watch their performance. The food and toilet in Nanhua will always be the best! Haha.

Went for guitat lesson before going to Yingying's house for steamboat with sandy, Mewleng, Hueyjie, Beeleng and Songru. Thankyou yingying's parents for the wonderful steamboat! Celebrated Sandy's birthday too! But she actually knew the surprise beforehand -.-

Just came back from malaysia! Had some kind of fun with my cousins, karaokae session, laosheng... Long time no see! Haha. (: I think I've gain much weight ):

I changed my guitar lesson to Tuesday, 6pm at clementi due to the stupid timetable. BUT NOW, the new timetable damn jiao. SUDDENLY HAVE WHAT LEP ENRICHMENT ON TUESDAY UNTIL 530pm! SIAO AR. I'll be late for lesson la! The best thing is that I have 1.5 hours of break before that. Can't they just bring forward the thing? ASS HOLE. Thank you NY for making me scold vulgarities once I came back from Malaysia.

And I say Oh My God...

2010-02-07T21:51:00.002+08:00

Orientation was over on Tuesday! NOVA 4! Actually the whole of orientation was rather fun. At least my OG mates as well as the OGLs are very friendly (: Get to know some new friends and I saw my primary school mate too. I guess I'll miss orientation as lectures have just started. We were still in our OG since Wednesday for lectures, but from tomorrow onwards, we'll be in our individual classes! All of us in the OG are going in all directions, north , northwest, southeast... [I'm being stupid I know -.-]. Really hope that we could meet up someday together.

I've just changed my subject combination! Hell. After going for the first lessons of China studies in Chinese, I realised that I don't really like the subject at all. Rather than sticking with the subject and make myself miserable for the next 2 years, I rather change the subject! So I changed it to H2 physics. The teacher scolded me for not looking for her the day before that, but it was because I didn't know that there was a general office in the school [This is very true. I bet some of you are doubting me.] But I'm really serious. She was so fierce that I cried on the spot! Then she started talking to me with a better attitude. After crapping abit about how I've created trouble for her, the teachers there finally agreed to let me change it. AND HELLO, IT WAS BECAUSE THE CHINESE HOD TOLD US THAT WE COULD CHANGE!

My subject combination now is 4 H2 subjects, PCM CLL. Weird combination I know. Haha. My class is 1022! We'll be in our classes tomorrow, but I'm not really looking forward to it. But at least there's no lessons tomorrow, but we have the DISC profiling workshop for the whole day till 5pm. Sounds tiring isn't it?

By the way, I think I'm joining guitar ensemble as my CCA! I hope that I can get in, although my skills sucks. Haha. Guitar lesson on Friday was fun! Fun lesson with a fun teacher (:

I went to somerset 313 with my mum today to buy my new year clothes! Not bad I think, at least I bought something. Haha. 2 tops and 2 bottoms. I think I'm going to ION Orchard next week to shop for some other stuffs. Anybody wanna join me? ;D

I shall sleep early. See you guys around! (:

BAAAAAAAAHAHAHA.

2010-01-31T19:33:00.002+08:00

I'm back from 403 chalet at aloha! Although not many of us went, but at least there's more than half of us there? Yea. The main programmes for the chalet was just BBQ and maybe Mahjong? Haha. We were damn crazy! We actually played at the playing ground for kids, and we became super violent. But actually, I didn't join in the "fun". LOL. Okay, then since I don't know how to play Mahjong, many of us just took pictures and talk about our JC life. Quite interesting to hear from so many people from different schools! But most of them are in ACJC...

I didn't really helped in the BBQ! [Feeling guilty]. Haha. But most of us were chatting away... Glad to know that most of us are enjoying orientation! Some of us stayed overnight. The gus kept talking about some haunted forest or terrace, kind of spooky also. Haha. Had breakfast at mac before we go home! THANK YOU MR KIEU FOR BOOKING THE CHALET! If not, I don't think we'll have the chance to have a gathering like this...

Thursday and Friday was orientation at NYJC. First day was more of subject combination talks, self intro and some games. Mass dance too but I'm not really into it. We went to sentosa on Friday for orientation! I think it was rather fun, but hectic. Had dinner at secret recipe and talked till 9 plus with yingying they all at vivo before going home. Hope that orientation for the next 2 days will be fun too! (:

I'm in CLEP. I've chosen my subject combination! China studies in Chinese, Chinese Language Literature, Maths, Chemistry. Haha. I don't think many of them chose this, and most of the people in CLEP are in arts stream! While I'm in the Science stream... I'm going to apply for CLEP scholarship! Hope that I will be able to get it. Oh, and I've counted, there's only around 13 people from nanhua in NYJC! Haha.

A new beginning.

2010-01-27T21:38:00.003+08:00

O level results is out like a few weeks ago. I guess I'm just too slack already that's why. I'm posted to Nanyang Junior College, which is at Bishan. And I'm living in Jurong! Okay. That's... fine. 2 years should be fast. Pray hard that the circle line finish faster!!!! Then maybe can wake up at least 15 minutes later. ): But anyway, quite a number of people whom I know are going to NYJC too! First day of orientation for JC tomorrow. Jiayou! All the best everyone! (:

Don't ask me why I didn't get into AC.. Because I don't really like it and it's not really my top choice. Haha.

Keep in contact people!

Yea. And my last day of work was on Monday. Kind of happy that I don't have to go to work anymore. My colleagues are nice but if I have to face those unreasonable customers everyday, I would rather not work. Bye M&S! (:

It's 2010!

2010-01-07T21:00:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone! It's rather late to say HAPPY NEW YEAR. But Never mind. Haha. I'm still working at Marks & Spencer. (:

My colleagues are really a bunch of very nice people! Rather fun working, when there are things to do... Haha. They bought me a cake on my birthday, when I thought that I had to spend the day like a normal day! I spent Xmas eve at mari's house and her cooking is awesome! Even more delicious than what my mum cooks. Haha. I spent the last day of 2009 and the first day of 2010 in M&S too! The most surprising part was that my supervisor, Sophia, graduated from Nanhua! And we talked about teachers in Nanhua too. I simply love her to bits and hugged her everyday! Muahaha. The nice people there was part of the reason why I extended my contract. But most of the temporary staff are not here anymore because they went back to schooling, those left are waiting for Os results...

Results will be out on Monday. I'm rather nervous. [Or veryyy?] Well, just have to wait right? Haha. Excited to see everyone too! Aiya, just give me my results. Will the new principal be as talkative as Dr Foo? Maybe she'll learn from Dr Foo and have speeches in both English and Chinese. By the time we get our results, it may be 4pm! HAHA.

2009 past in a flash. So fast, so catchy. But I don't really want to repeat the year anymore. Haha. See all of you on Monday, 2pm! In school uniform right? Haha (:

HAPPY 16! (:

2009-12-16T09:47:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to myself! I really missed last year badly! Celebrating birthday in Beijing was a wonderful experience. Haha. Must thank Mr Eric Tan and of course Mr Benny Ng! And the other 8 of us! The act of trying to cut the cake by holding the knife the other way -.- Haha. Omg, I really miss last year! ):

This year is bad... I'm working! Haiz... Quite sad right? ): But nevermind, thank you to those who wished me a happy birthday! (: Love all of you! ;D

Reminiscing

2009-12-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

Last year, at this point of time, we were in beijing. We were still getting use to the cold weather there, and maybe eating dinner somewhere. We were still like strangers, not knowing the existence of one another... How I wish we could be there once again.

Job training just ended today. I'm now officially a temporary staff of Marks & Spencer, Wheelock place outlet. Lol. Will be starting work tomorrow. Everyday except Wednesday. Will update if I have the time though. This blog is so dead. LOL.

YOYOYO!

2009-11-26T21:55:00.001+08:00

Prom was on monday! Shopped quite long for that dress that I wore, and my mum paid for it! It's bought at Iluma. Black tube dress with mesh. We went to Clara's house that day and she and her Mum helped us wit the make up. All of them who went styled their hair at fareast except me and hueyjie. We didn't style. Hehe. So yea, that nigh was mostly taking of many many photos. The cross talk was a failure. The Prom king and queen thing don't know how they choose the finalists de. Yea. The food was okay. Not really much that night. The most important thing was that it symbolise that we already graduate! I shall upload a couple of pictures on facebook soon. (: Really very grateful to Clara and her mum! My feet hurt a lot la! After wearing the heels which is not very high also. Haha. And thanks Zhicheng!

I AM IN GENTING NOW! The weather is cooling. Haha. I came with my uncle and his family by his car. The young twins are really... irritating. LOL. Just went to outdoor themepark and all I don't dare to ride. One of my cousins also don't dare! So ya, we just walked around. The booths inside scam us! It's damn difficult to win a bear. LOL. So waste money. Just ate dinner. One plate of Chicken rice 15 ringgit! Like please? Damn expensive. Lol.

Wondering why am I able to use the net? I'M IN STARBUCKS NOW!!! Free wireless. The coffee damn nice. Haha. Just imagine drinking hot coffee in a cold weather. Shall go and shop later!
Will upload pictures soon! But no one will read this blog anyway (: HAHA.

RED CAMP! VIKINGS OEII! (:

2009-11-20T21:39:00.002+08:00

Went to red camp from 17th to 19th. It was awesome! My tribe was the HORNY VIKINGS!

Yea. So actually, I wasn't really looking forward to it at first. Haha. I felt rather bored on the first day but the subsequent days were BOOMZ. LOL. The whole camp was entertaining and there's not much breaks or intervals for us to be bored. Me xinyi xuemiao and sylvia were always sticking together, so we actually didn't really know much friends from other schools. The SLs were awesome and fun to be with! One funny thing was that when me and xuemiao introduced ourselves, people always ask us "You 2 are sisters?" Yea, xue ma. Haha. Get to know my sis's friend, Jonathan Ho. He is really a joker, together with our tribe emcee Jervis. He said me and my sis look alike which is such a BIG joke. HAHA. Violet gave me the teacher feel [those damn nice ones] and Hader [is this how we spell it?] is very cute! She's our camerawoman. I don't really remember other Sls' names because there's just too many of them. Oh, there's Enna, ex-nanhuarian.

Vikings are horny and sexy! Haha. Yea. The cheers are still stucked in my head. The so called red camp withdrawal symptoms? Haha. RED CAMP 6 IS FUN!

Horny horny horny, Whoo!We're so horny, Yeah!
We are the Vikings! Oh yeah!

End?

2009-11-14T21:21:00.004+08:00

O levels is over. Not really very very very happy, but definitely glad that it's over. Waiting for the results is a torture... Hope that I can get the result I want.

Out with xinyi, sylvia and xuemiao yesterday. Watched 2012. I don't really think that it's a nice show because all I saw was just human beings trying to save themselves from a world which is collapsing and people sacrificing? Other than that, not really much. But not until the point where we will fall asleep though. The graphics and effects seems real enough. Bought contacts yesterday. After almost a year, I'm back to it again. My degrees rose by quite alot! That's quite a sad thing. And I'm sure it did because I can't even see the words on the whiteboard sometimes. Those school check ups for eyesight was rubbish. -.-. I got scammed okay, by those "cover your left eye, cover your right now. okay done. Get lost." Laughs. Someone please save my eyes! I went to rebond my hair today. I really regretted cutting my hair short last year! I thought my long hair before that was nicer. LOL.

Looking for a part time job currently. Too bored? Partly. In need of money? Partly too. Haha. I need to pay for guitar fees. MYSELF. Yea. Time to be a good girl. Some events coming up soon! Supposedly I'm going on a trip with my relatives in December, but now it's being rescheduled to 26th this month. Going back to help out in Lakeside's band. MR KUEK DO MISS ME, I hope. LOL. I will be there for the graduating concert! I know you'll be happy. Haha. You don' sound great when I told you I couldn't attend it yesterday. [I hope I was not wrong about you not feeling great]. I will be there for his wedding too. Great. Haha.

I don't really have anything to type already. Too much that I wanna say but those can't be put into words or written in black and white. I re-read the letter again and again. I'm sorry about doing that to you, but I just can't stand it when I heard that she said she love you. You get it? I doubt so since you're still giving me a cold shoulder.

The feeling sucks when someone said " I should have chose to believe her. " Thank you very much for that sentence because it made me understand you deeper.

Contemplating.

2009-10-01T20:06:00.004+08:00

Finally, the prelim results are all out. My results aren't really good, and also not that bad. I was most disappointed with Chinese. It used to be my best subject, and now, I scored lowest for it among all my subjects. It is a B4. All my other subjects were As and B3s. English and physic's results were unexpected. My biology sucks. Humanities too. -.- Work harder for Os.

I went to NgeeAnn Polytechnic today to hand in the withdrawal form for DPA exercise. Yea. But I'm afraid that I will regret. Too late to do so anyway. Haha.

I felt the tremor yesterday in the afternoon. When I told my mum, she told me that I was dreaming -.-. When I told some of my friends, some said that I study till too stressed. But see! I wasn't hallucinating! It was real. Lol. -.-

Xinyi, don't think of graduating la, think of Os. (:

我有一个梦想...

2009-09-27T21:24:00.002+08:00

School now is boring. There's really nothing to do since the main point of us going to school now is to listen to talks and get back as well as go through the prelim papers. The talks were seriously very boring and I am just not interested in the talks. I'm not even interested in the schools, other than Ngee Ann Poly. ACJC and PJC. I really never thought of getting in, unless I suddenly changed my mind after I got back my Olevels results...

So far, the only paper that we got back was English. I barely scraped an A, which is not and A. Laughs. Tomorrow, more papers will be coming back I guess. There will be talks too. Sitting in the hall is... torturous.

I have a lot to say, but obviously not through this panel. The matter of fact is that, you will never get to hear it, because you don't even know that I'm talking about you -.-.

Cya around.

Taking a deep breath.

2009-09-23T19:59:00.002+08:00

Prelims is finally over. I can't deny the fact that I screwed up almost every single paper. I don't even have confidence in my best subject. Shall wait till I get back all the papers...

I want to take a deep breath. Although it's the end of prelims, but the beginning of O-levels. It's the last chance for us to do well. There's school again tomorrow. There's is a place I wanna go to, with someone. Somewhere away from this world. Bleh.

There's something I wanna tell someone. I know that you know I'm talking about you, but I don't think that you will read this. I didn't get to tell you this months ago, but I hope that I would be able to tell you what I wanna say soon. I believe that there's telepathy. (I know I'm abit crappy.) But... It seem that it's very unlikely that you will text me. BLAH. Anyway, see you around soon.

Results, please be out soon. Haha.

Okay, byebye. This place is dead. -.-

回忆

2009-09-08T13:12:00.003+08:00

你当天那样一走了之, 令我不知所措. 原来我对你来说只是一样替代品, 一个什么都不是的救生圈. 那些关心并不是要给我的. 你一声不响地离开, 对你来说并不算什么, 但对我来说却是一个永远都抹不掉的烙印.

I just can't stop thinking about some things. 都是我自找的啦. -.-

Updates

2009-09-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

This year's teachers' day was indeed a "memorable" one. -.-. Ok, at least I got a kiss from lin laoshi. Haha.

Went to Dian Xiao Er for my sis's birthday last thurs! It was really delicious, and I actually ate fish. It's considered a miracle okay. Just went for dinner with my sis in JP. I bought a bag for her. At least she treat me to starbucks. (:

Some papers are over for prelims. I don't know if I screwed them, but for now, I think I didn't. Maybe I will get a shock when i get back the papers, especially emaths... JIAYOU ba. がんばって。

It's holidays now and I'm not in a holiday mood. Lol. It's normal isn't it? Still facing books everyday. I'm bored. GRR.

I think I saw Yangcheng in JP just now. He stared at me and I stared back. -.- I'm super full now! Getting fatter...

我问了你, 但又不敢和你见面. 因为我害怕见到你, 害怕见到你那没有表情的脸. 去还是不去呢?
すみません。

...

2009-09-01T07:28:00.000+08:00

Happy teachers' day and lucks for prelims! (:

What are we? We are just... nothing.

2009-08-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

I had O-level Oral Examination on Tuesday. It was rather badly done. The passage was fine, but the picture and conversation were just crappy. I didn't even finish describing the picture. When I just finish one sentence, she just skipped to another question. After that, I haven't finish answering that question, she sort of cut me off and continued. I was halfway through a sentence and she just proceed to conversation! She kept interrupting me during the conversation. What a joke. -.-.

Seriously, there's nothing much this week. I got accepted for DPA to Diploma for Chinese Chinese studies to Ngeeann Poly and I accepted it. If my Prelims is not really good, I shall not withdraw from it. Haha.

My sis just went to Genting this morning with her friend. I also wanna go! So sian. My mum just bought a new phone today. It's like, super nice and I like the functions! I'm changing my phone soon, I want a samsung phone...

I just feel like I'm nothing in Nanhua. Like, seriously. But I'm glad that there's still friends around. It just made us (:

School...

2009-08-15T22:59:00.002+08:00

The past 2 weeks were rather busy for me. I went for DPA interview on the 4th, and I happened to meet John and shuxuan in NgeeAnn. Thanks John for telling me where the block was at, if not I think I'll be late. The interview did not turn out to be really good, but I tried, at least. I met some of the people who also went for DPA for Diploma in Chinese studies, some of them even live as far as Bedok. The course is only going to accept 40 people, so maybe only around 5 or 10 for DPA. How am I going to get in?

Went through Chinese Paper 2 on one of the Wednesday. I wasn't really satisfied with my results. As in, I've set a rather high standard for myself for Chinese. Especially after yesterday, I felt more demoralised. I didn't know that I actually wrote out of point for the question for composition. Maybe I'm just not good in writing argumentative essay. But what can I do?

Celebrated national day and this year was in the parade square. Nothing much happened and no special feelings. Lol. The only thing was that 403 got second in netball inter class.

Night study was energy draining. But at least I did study. Timed practices one after another, and we were going through past years prelim papers almost every lesson for almost every subject. Thanks Mrs Chang for the time you'd taken after school to clear our doubts for physics (:

I was really not in a good mood for the past 2 weeks. Okay, I shall just say that I was in a foul mood. Maybe it's because of not enough sleep? I don't know, but I just cannot bring myself to be in a good mood. I just don't feel like talking sometimes. Sorry to those whom I had angered...

THANKYOU ZHICHENG FOR SAVING MY LAPTOP! (:

Signing off...

老师与学生...

2009-08-15T22:56:00.001+08:00

老师是人, 学生也是人.
老师有感情, 学生也有感情.
老师会心情不好, 学生也会心情不好.
老师心情不好的时候，一走进课室时就会大声地喊 [什么都好...]. 有些甚至在看到学生摆着脸时, 质问学生为何脸会那么黑, 还冤枉学生是在给脸色他看. 拜托, 学生也有心情不好的时候, 那么我们是不是应该在老师心情不好的时候问你为什么给我们脸色看? 当然, 如果身为学生的我们这样问老师, 会被视为很没有礼貌, 那么换成是老师, 就是很客气的行为吗? 也许身为一位学生, 我不会了解老师们的想法. 也许老师们所承受的压力比我们大, 但是以上的行为是老师压力太大的后果吗?
老师心情好事, 近来教室就会对学生笑嘻嘻, 但是, 心情不好的时候便会把每件事情都拿来讲, 似乎正在鸡蛋里挑骨头.

我不是说每一位老师都是这样, 但是我相信美一位学生都有遇过这样的老师. 以上只是我身为学生的一些想法. 也许老师并不会那么觉得, 但是学生就是那么想. 我相信老师对学生也有另一套说法, 但我想说的是, 学生去学校并不是为了我以上所说的事...

我只是在针对几位老师的做法...

SUAY LAR!

2009-08-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

I am seriously very unlucky these few days, especially today! I dropped my phone yesterday and my phone went totally crazy. I will either auto shutdown, or cannot detect SIM card or memory card. And just now, when I switch on my laptop when I get home, I just don't know why it blacked out after I bathe. I was still on but no images! Damn. At least my phone can still work -.-. I feel so unlucky. It's not Friday the thirteenth!

MY SISTER IS BACK FROM VIETNAM! Yesterday. Haha. I really miss her. But the moment she came back, so many things spoil. LOL. =P. I love my sister! Okay, I think I shall post about the recent happenings soon. By the way, Prelims is postponed by one week! I wonder if this is a good thing. Haha.

I came online just to check my mails. I shall go now, will be back really soon!
*My sis's laptop seem to be nicer to use. Haha. (:

生日快乐!

2009-08-06T20:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! I love you many many.

I made red colour eggs for my mum this morning! Tonight's dinner was sumptuous. Haha. Yummy yummy. I hoped my mama enjoyed her birthday! (:

Have to reach school tomorrow early. And wait. Yea. -.-.

Will update again soon!

好久不见

2009-08-02T16:28:00.002+08:00

The past 2 weeks was quite fast because we had countless tests and time practice. Just this week, we had 8 of them! Had 2 days MC due to fever last week. I got shortlisted for DPA interview. It's during the coming tuesday. I don't really remember what happened for the past 2 weeks already. LOL. I realised tuition is on so many days. Thursday, today, tomorrow, coming saturday and sunday. I'll be very busy. Haha.

There'll be night study the coming week. Hope that they will be productive. (: Tuition today was just doing papers. Actually Ms Lee's quite motivating. Shall work hard!

There's some National day thing going on opposite my block now. They had some I don't know what programme, and the road jammed. Some sort of bombings was heard alot of times, and the cars are horning like mad. -.-. The national anthem and National day songs keep playing! Should I be happy that I get to listen to free songs? LOL. But nevermind, they sound nice anyway.

My mother's birthday is coming, and my sister is returning! Looking forward...

REPLIES TO TAGS!
zhengda: No la! You then wanna be nurse. LOL.
yingying: And you didn't come for tuition today!
`xinyi: What what?
Oswald: It was your fault!
Ruiqi: Lol. Yup!
ELAINE: Why don't you update too? Haha. I threw it away. (:
Eugene: You are so SLOW! =P
Yong Yue: I agree with you!
Sheri: Hello! Link you next time. Haha.
Angelina: That was the day when she said that she have no voice.

Will be back soon!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-07-20T21:07:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Daddy! Omg, You're old. Haha.

I love the cake! And I made the red red colour eggs. My hands are red now. (:

I love daddy! Btw, jiejie, are you jealous? Haha. =P.

Get use?

2009-07-18T22:18:00.004+08:00

Almost the end of another week. This week was spent in a rush, I feel.

Monday was fine dining at the Indulge retaurant. The coach was xavier (or zavier?). He paired me with weinan! I wanted xinyi as my date okay. -.-. Shared a 4 seat table with weishun and puifang. Sitting with them was hilarious. At least the whole session was fun, and weinan was acting like gentleman. Ended the session with a class photo.

Wednesday was photo taking. As usual, I was sitting at the first row. The photos were taken in a rush. Yea. After school was Biology SPA. It was on the cobalt chloride paper experiment! I can't believe my eyes, because I studied the most for that experiment. Hope that everything will be okay.

Had Chinese common test on Thursday. I couldn't concentrate with all those noise. Partly because I don't even have the mood to do it. If I barely pass or fail the test, I will just go bang my head against the wall. Stayed in school with ying till our tuition timing. Ate dinner together, with sandy, zoe and jiaqian. Tuition was like a war. Literally.

Friday's highlight was Harry Potter. We started the day with Harry Potter, as in, we kept talking about it. Went to Vivo GV Max to watch Harry Potter. Thanks Dingyi for asking your brother to book the tickets. Haha. There were 8 of us. Me, Ying, Dingyi, Hueyjie, Edelyn, Chenyun, Weishun and Boonchang. The movie was not as exciting as what I thought it would be. But overall, it was cool. Took MRT home after that. And Boon Chang told me a Joke. He's really a big joker!

I'm nice, I donated to boonchang and wenkai's flagday tins just now! Ying too. Yea. On my way home, I took a bus, and I didn't notice that my primary school friend was sitting behind me until he told me on msn just now. Guess he really changed alot. I want to meet up with my primary schoolmates badly...

Get well soon to those who are sick.

I couldn't think of any reasons for doing this. You all think that I'm being indifferent? Then suit yourself. If you want to take others' comments about me to heart, then please don't tell me that you believe in me. Please don't give me any hope when there isn't meant to be any in the first place. Seriously, I actually mind about every single word you told me. I'm never a nice person, because coming near me will actually hurt you, you see. Trust? It disappeared from my dictionary a long time ago.

I'm in a bad mood.

2009-07-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

This week is just going to school, remedial, go home. Another typical week. Monday was Youth day and we had a day of holiday! Went to NgeeAnn Poly on Wednesday for open house or whatever it's called. Lol. The school is very big. [Like duh -.-] Watched a video and some performances put up by the students there, followed by a talk on business course. So that's what my sis learnt. LOL. It was fun though. After that was a talk on Engineering. Interesting fact. I was given a pair of movie tickets for the lowest percentage of oxygen in my blood after holding my breath. Laughs.

Thursday was basketball inter class. Quite rough. No, is VERY rough. Good job 403. Haha. Had tuition at night and the moment I reached home, I bathed and then slept.

Today is seriously a suay day. DAMN SUAY. First period of the day was Social studies, and it totally spoiled my day. Teachers are human beings too, I know, and they have feelings. But I am a human being too. Teachers can scold us when they are in a bad mood. I didn't even say anything. As in, she asked us to take out our files and apparently, I didn't bring. And she just stared at me and shouted "Where is your file?" Followed by something like I have been making funny faces and gossiping during lessons. Wow, I really did? I admit that I will whisper during her lessons or something, but definitely not like what she said. Being a normal person, I retaliated. But she returned me with sarcasm like "Yes, you didn't, you definitely did not do that."And so on. She speak as if I badmouthed her in front of other teachers and whatever. Like, omg, I can really shout out all sorts of words from my mouth at that moment. I cried for the whole 1 hour of her lesson okay. So after the lesson, she told me that it's because she is in a mad mood due to some teachers complaining to her about her class about the above mentioned stuffs. So teachers do scold people for totally no reasons, but because they are in a bad mood. But at least she bothered to apologise, not like some teachers right? But I'm still abit angry la! It's the first time I got scolded by a teacher like that, some more for no reason. How would you feel if I just walk up to you one day and slap you for no reason, and I apologise to you after that. Does the apology helps?

Argh.

Went for the Chinese enrichment lesson after school by 李博士. I think the lesson was captivating [to me] because I was rather interested in this kind of things. Today was about poetry. The lesson next week is going to be about the 中国的四大发明. Looking forward but I couldn't attend it. LOL.

I'm left with quite a number of homework. I must finish them over the weekend. I shall go pack the things for tomorrow's tuition and go sleep. Bye! (: Will be back soon.

Over the Weekend.

2009-07-05T14:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was family day! Went out for breakfast in the morning with my parents since there's no tuition. We went to a coffee shop in Pioneer and the food there was not really nice. Or rather, it's not to my liking. Haha. My parents like it though, especially my mum.

Went to watch Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen in the afternoon yesterday with my dad. We went to GV at Jurong Point. Guess what? The queue at the ticket box office was so long that I think it was about 10 metres long or even longer! Luckily I bought the tickets beforehand. (: Oh, and I saw KuanYuan there too. We're watching the same movie in the same theatre. I think the movie is nice. Especially the audio effects. The movie is a nice sequel and the plot is quite engaging. Haha. Worth the money spent. Went to Banquet for dinner with my parents after the movie. Had Laksa. I didn't eat rice for the whole day! Felt weird. LOL. It was a fun family day! ;D

Finally, the long-abandoned double-decker bed stationed in my room is being moved out and thrown away! My room look a bit spacious now. (: And I can hear some echoe when I speak, I wonder if I'm hallucinating. -.-

I'm staying at home today for the whole day. There's no school tomorrow. Must use the time wisely then. Bye!

This is the time...

2009-07-03T22:11:00.001+08:00

I'm getting back on the track. School's actually not that bad, just that I feel tired everyday. It's a chore to wake up at 530am every single morning and I cannot afford to sleep any later.

This week was a bit busy. Seem busy but don't sound busy. Haha. Just remedial and photo shoot for class montage. Wednesday was SJAB day and we wore full U for the whole day. Luckily there's air con in the classroom, if not it'll be damn hot. Had maths tests and I think I did badly. Maybe I didn't study enough. Haha. Teachers helped us to buy alot of TY, but what's the point when Os is just in a few month's time? Maybe we can't even finish. YingYing! Sorry for ps-ing you all for the movie today. ): Next time, I promise. Oh ya, Dr Foo came to our class to give us some personalised bookmarks. Hmm, quite encouraging. Haha. (:

Night classes postponed. HCI EDC and string orchestra's concert are also postponed. Nfac too! H1N1 is really powerful. Watched a video on H5N1 today during bio lesson. It looks scary.

Below are 2 pictures. Just random and the first one is quite funny. Haha.

Enlarge it and see what's written by Ms Sathi (:

Ying is in the process of doing some expression.

I wouldn't be blogging so often from now onwards. Happy reading! I don't really remember what I wanna write already. Haha.

I think people are weird. When you tell me that you don't like someone, I see you talking to that person and smiling so heartily that I thought you like the person very much. Weird? I think it's very weird, because I don't see the point why are you doing so.

Last day of June Holiday.

2009-06-28T19:38:00.003+08:00

Today is the last day of our last June holiday in secondary school. Didn't really get to do much this holidays. I didn't travel overseas, not even to my grandparents' house. I miss my June holidays in secondary 2 and 3! I really enjoyed myself and that's real holidays.

This time round, I feel that it's just studying at own time, own target. Nevertheless, a few days of fun I had should be enough. Although this holiday may not be eventful, but quite some stuffs that took place made me tired enough.

Oh ya, I almost forget to mention that xinyi and sylvia came to my house on Friday. My mum keep giving them food to eat. Laughs. They seriously like to take pictures. Xinyi, some of the pictures are on facebook already. I lazy to upload all, haha.

I'm not really looking forward to school reopen, which is tomorrow. And I think this year's SJAB day gonna be a bit, I don't know what to say. We shall just see what we're supposed to do. But was rather disappointed, since it's our last year already.

But anyway, school's gonna be quite busy, and I'm looking forward to Ngee Ann Polytechnic's open house or something. Considering to get into polytechnic if I like the course. There's still some homework not completed yet, but I guess that's not really important anyway. I will complete them with some references, since I also don't know how to do. =P. I don't like the timetable. I was quite excited when I saw the title of Mr Kieu's email (I don't know why was my reaction that way -.-). But after I look at it, three sciences in one day again, sick of it. Some more it's on the first day of school. Took a picture of it and saved it in my phone.

I'm not ready for school. And I keep sneezing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-06-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Eugene Goh!
You're already eighteen, how old. =P. Thanks for being my big brother and thanks for your ears whenever I need them. Thanks for listening to what I say. Thanks for being there when I'm really unhappy. Thanks brother!

也许就是那么巧吧...

2009-06-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

我的钢琴上总是少了一个键.

我还以为做朋友其实很简单, 但是我错了. "世界上没有永远的朋友", 这话一点也没有错. 弄我笑的是你, 弄我哭的也是你, 你到底想要我怎么样. 我已经没有什么办法了. 我们要做朋友真的有那么难吗? 那你当初为什么要和我做朋友? 真的, 你令我有一点无话可说. 我没有在发脾气, 只是感到有一点纳闷. 我想问你, 你到底把我当成什么了? 你想和我说话就和我说话, 不想和我说话就不说. 但是不管怎么样, 我已经收到了你所要说的话了.

You may not be intentional, but I feel hurt. I never thought that friends would be like this. I thought that being friends would be simple.That was only what I thought. I think I think I fantasize too much. I have loads of things to say, but they can't be expressed with words. I feel lost now. But thanks for saying all those things. I get it now...

我收到了

2009-06-25T22:18:00.002+08:00

Just went for tuition and saw dear Yingying. Love her! She's always nice (: I love talking to her. Had a good laugh just now during tuition because Ms Lee is always so funny. Zoe's funny too! ;D.

Coincidence. I keep seeing Mewleng and Mingyao at the interchange. Not once only. Twice! Maybe I'll see them there again someday. Haha.

Going out tomorrow. Basketball. Quite long never really play le. I have no skills anyway. Laughs.

I understand. No doubt, it's me right? Haha. I get it already. Thanks for being so frank.

Bleh Bleh Bleh...

2009-06-24T20:46:00.003+08:00

I went out for breakfast with my mum today. Very long since we ate breakfast together because she's always away or not free. -.- . Went to JE library to study with Oswald. Wth, no second time. Laughs! Like didn't do much. He's damn @#$%^&^%$#@. Okay, that was just joking (:

THERE'S TUITION TOMORROW! I can see yingying. I think I'm missing her alot. Ying, be honoured! I don't think she'll see this. Haha!

GOOD NEWS! My sister is bringing forward her internship's ending date. Sounds weird. Okay, in short, she's coming back to Singapore earlier than expected! She's coming back in August instead of October! (: I'm really very happy! But now feel happy, then when she come back we'll start fighting again. HAHA. But like that then fun ma! (:

REPLIES TO TAGS!
zhengda: Haha, what do I wanna be? I don't tell you. You guess lor. Haha. =P Oh, and HI! That one is Mind Cafe, not settlers. Settlers is bigger! Haha.
elaine: Muahaha, you wanna eat toastbox ar? Faster fly back lor. And actually you look more like daddy okay!
Mr X: Cheemology. Haha. But thanks. (:
`xinyi: Yohooo, you're evil, no curry for you! ;D
ruiqi: I want to watch but no one accompany me ma.
sylvia: Hello!
Sean: Hello! Hmm, it's nice ar? I shall go watch then. Haha. By the way, are you the Sean from BSC?
JaVerN:D: Haha. Hello. So cool! Just asking ma (:
Zhanteng: Wow, so free? Haha. Hello!

朋友与敌人只是一线之差.

2009-06-22T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hey friend! Do you still remember me?

I suddenly thought of some random things. Things like... Maybe friendship and stuffs. Many things changed throught this 4 years, but I will treasure everything that I have now.

The feeling of being cheated by your best friend is unbearable. I understand how you felt. Cheer up people! Let's study hard now for the time being, it's too early to decide on other things (:

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!

2009-06-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

Happy Fathers' Day daddy! (:
I'm not filial at all. -.-. I only treated my daddy to lunch! Laughs. Must buy him a big big present during his birthday! It's coming soon. Haha. I realised that this picture is quite old already. It was taken on last year's Chinese New Year in my grandparents' house.

Daddy, I love you! [Mummy, I love you too. Haha! ;D]

Day Out

2009-06-19T20:53:00.007+08:00

Went out with Xinyi, Xuemiao and Ruiqi. Met up at JurongEast MRT station and we saw quite some people from nanhua. Went to Vivo to repair Ruiqi's phone first. OMG, I want to buy the Samsung phone! I think the functions are rather good. Ate lunch at Ramenten and we went to city hall. Walked for a long time and we finally reached Mind Cafe. It's cool! It's all about board games. Haha. I think I'm bad at it. I didn't win any game. Haha.

We played this game for quite long. I always get kicked home -.-.

This was the telepathy game.

OMG. Look at all the boardgames!

Of course, we played some other games apart from the 2 mentioned above. I would want to go there on my birthday! It's a cool place. We went home at around 6pm.
My mum's back today! Finally, there's home-cooked food to eat (: . Tuition tomorrow! I'm quite tired now. Haha.

Slack

2009-06-18T23:50:00.002+08:00

I feel super slack these few days. When I study at home, I walked around after doing a few questions. I intended to do timed practice for Chinese yesterday but it failed. -.- Went to JE library today with xinyi, ruiqi and zhicheng. I was staring into space most of the time. I couldn't really concentrate. Looking at that Zhicheng in front of me doing non-stop, I feel bad. I shall be more focus! (:

One and a half week more of holidays, must really use the time wisely. I'm not looking forward to school reopen. -.-

Going out tomorrow. I shall go to page one tomorrow for another search of nice books. I think I shall go sleep now, quite late already! Bye (:

A Change

2009-06-17T23:31:00.001+08:00

I changed the blogskin. Spent some time on it. Just a simple one.

I shall go now, will be back tomorrow. Stay tuned! (:

你骗我

2009-06-15T22:57:00.003+08:00

骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人骗人。

Enough of it. No one told me what's wrong. You didn't tell me what's wrong. I don't know what's going on. Maybe you have your reasons, but you chose not to tell me and so be it. I didn't owe you in my past life, do I?

Finally started on Biology today and I finished all the papers at one go. More homework to go!

Anyone wanna go watch horror movie with me? Haha.

2009-06-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

Went for tuition early in the morning. Ate toastbox for breakfast! Haha. No mood to do papers today actually. Talked quite alot =P. Went to popular with yingying and zoe after that. I'm very tempted to buy books okay! But I know how to control la, cannot keep buying. Zoe went off first, leaving me and yingying. I cannot believe that we actually met Jovina everywhere we walked! With ahem. Haha. Alot of times. After that we took the same bus to clementi central too. Quite weird though.

I learned how to cook curry chicken today! Haha. It's very nice! Not screwed. (: My mum just went to malaysia, hope that she have a safe and fun trip (:

Down the street

2009-06-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

I went to study with xinyi today at CCK library! Met James annd Boonchang there too. Boonchang's super funny. Haha. I did maths today, but it's getting on my nerves. -.-. Shall got on with science soon. There's still a whole stack of science papers to be done.

Guess what? I saw a man in his fifties wear nanhua PE t-shirt on the MRT today! Isn't that cool? I suspect that shirt is from his son, because his son cannot fit into it anymore. LOL! Oh ya, I bought "The Da Vinci Code" in Lot 1 today! Another book down from my list. I wanted to buy "Angels and Demons"! But I think I didn't bring enough money today. Haha. Next time then! ;D

Reading the book now! Shall continue with work tomorrow, and there's tuition tomorrow! Happy studying! (:

我行得正

2009-06-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

There's Amaths remedial today at 8am. Reached MRT station at 730am to meet xinyi and xuemiao. Walked to school, then side gate was closed. Walked to front gate and the security guard damn qian bian lor! The thermometor got problem also not my fault -.-. This kind of security guard will put our lives at risk lor! Laughs.

Mrs leuar teach quite fast, but luckily still can catch up. Stayed back after school to study. Walked to MRT station with xinyi and xuemiao.

I shall go bathe now and sleep (:

放下了心头大石

2009-06-08T21:33:00.002+08:00

Woke up not very early today, reached clementi at 10am to meet up with xinyi and xuemiao. Went to school together and we reached on the dot. Amaths quite fun today, learned new things, rather easy! Biology very boring la! All read before when doing the mindmap. Doing mindmap actually helped me to memorise...

After that walked to central in a group, yingying and hueyjie they all quite horny ar! I think me, xinyi and xuemiao are normal. Haha. If you heard what they were talking about, you will burst out laughing like a mad person. (:

Jiejie, get well soon! I miss you and love you too! (: My mum's very 厉害, she said that she know my sis is sick when she heard her voice. Cool right?

Remedial tomorrow again! (:

此地不留人，自有留人处

2009-06-06T21:33:00.002+08:00

I'm really glad that I went for the tuition this morning. Ms Lee and Yingying never fail to make me laugh. Too bad Theshura left early, if not we can all laugh together. Thanks for the toast Ms Lee! Found out when is her birthday. Cool, we're having O-levels. Talked to Yingying about some things. I fell so shuang pouring my feelings out. Thanks xinyi for the talk too. I love talking to them.

Went to TJ macs to study with Mewleng. I studied History today. Finished one and a half chapters. When I'm about to leave, I talked to Mewleng. Funny things. Made me more determined not to say some things.

I love them! Thanks for taking to me and listening to me.

You treated me like a piece of crap. YOU THINK ONLY YOU GOT 七情六欲AR? I ALSO HAVE LEH. 我也会伤心，我也会哭.

ELAINE LEECHEW! Faster come back, I want to talk to you.

It's gonna be another day with the sunshine.

2009-06-05T20:25:00.003+08:00

I went to school to study with Xinyi and Ruiqi today. Early in the morning, I went to the Library to return books, then trained to clementi. Helped Xinyi and Ruiqi to buy their MacDonald breakfast and reached school at 10plus. Haha. I studied History today! Saw Yingying in the afternoon with Sandy. I love talking to Yingying. (: You know what? I see Yingying almost everyday during this holidays, at least till now. Despite seeing her from Monday till tomorrow. Haha. And we sit beside each other regardless of remedial or tuition! Love you. ;D

At 1pm, Yingying they all went for Emaths remedial, left with me and Xinyi in the canteen. I think we were quite funny. Inside joke. Not exactly a joke anyway. Lol. In the end we went up to class at 2plus because the canteen was super stuffy. I think I'm the only one who feel hot. -.-. With air con in the classroom, it just feels great studying. There's a sentence from Mrs Chang which became my motivation to study just now. (: "There's no time for you to feel sian!" She was saying that to Evia. Just nice I was feeling very bored and I started fiddling with my phone. After hearing her said that, I went to study again. Haha. I think that's very cool.

Went home at 5pm today.
To Zhengda: Haha. True. But you are funny! I'm not a sadist. (:
It has been long since I reply tags. I shall reply tags once a week. ;D

I think I know what I want to be in the future. I shall work towards my goal!

I don't get it. Tell me why. I don't think that it's fun at all. I don't... Maybe it's because I'm lack of something. Maybe it's because of.. I don't know. Maybe... Yea, Maybe.

因为...

2009-06-04T22:50:00.002+08:00

I really don't know what to say. I feel... as in, i don't really know how I'm feeling right now. Mixed feelings. I feel that I don't belong to anywhere. I just, don't know where to go.

Got my report book today. Mr kieu talked to my mum and my mum talked to Mr Kieu. Okay, it's the same anyway. Omg, I became more 成熟! I didn't realise this, or was that Mr Kieu was lying to my mum? The whole session was quite funny though.

Went to study with Daryl and Zhengda at TJ Macs in the afternoon. Two jokers= funny + funny = TOO FUNNY. Yea. Went for tuition after that. Damn tired now, just reach home not long ago and had my dinner, or should I say it's supper?

我看不清前面的路, 我到底该怎么走?
I feel like crying...

你们同流合污!

2009-06-03T22:45:00.002+08:00

Had Amaths remedial today. It was rather constructive, just that the class was abit noisy and out of control. Haha. After that had Chinese for around 15minutes. I kind of catch what Mr Kieu was talking about. Shall try to improve my Chinese. Had lunch after that in the canteen with Xinyi and Xuemiao. Went back to class and did abit of maths. Left at 4pm with Xinyi.
This was how I spent my day today.

There's Chemistry test tomorrow! Hope that it'll be easy. Electrolysis is getting on my nerves.

Is it true that birds of the same feather flock together? Human nature is so scary. It's beyond your imagination.

A short break

2009-06-02T20:52:00.002+08:00

Today's relaxing. I feel guilty now for not studying hard! Studied at TJ Macs with Xinyi Mewleng Yanru Daryl and Nixon. After awhile Yujun joined us and we went to bowl. Mewleng and Nixon didn't though. We played 2 games! Finally can relax a while, laughing. Haha. The ball I threw bounced from the gutter back to the lane TWICE! Omg, it looked amazing can? Haha. My highest was 99 today. (:

Continued studying after that, only left with me mewleng and yujun. Left at 8pm and mewleng's there alone now. Lol. Today's fun! (:

站在交界处，不知如何是好...

2009-06-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

In the morning, I woke up and felt very sad. Really very sad but I don't know what's the cause. I walked around in the house. Rounds and more rounds, and I finally sit down in front of the study table to carry on with my homework. Everything just seem to be odd.

After spending the morning like this, I went to school in the afternoon for Prelim English oral. The picture looked easy but hard. Don't think that I'm not making sense, take a look at the picture and you will know. Mdm Noridah said I did okay. OKAY? Gosh, means I done badly right? That's how I infer, haha. While waiting for Xin Yi, I went to the library to do some work with Jocelyn. I finished a comprehension! I wonder if Mdm Noridah will go through or collect it because she never do that. -.-. Went to TJ macs to find mewleng and Yujun after that. Studied for awhile and went home.

I feel rather tired now. 提不起劲儿... I think I shall go and sleep soon and prepare for another race tomorrow. Byebye!

Oh, and also, happy holidays! (:

looking.

2009-05-31T22:03:00.001+08:00

My parents are back. They said that my sister slimmed down, I wonder if it's true. Lol.

Went to JE Library to study with Xinyi and Mewleng. I studied Chemistry today and understood electrolysis a little better. Practice makes perfect! (: Shall do more. I'm looking for assessment books, any to recommend?

Tomorrow is Prelim oral, luckily I'm the second one, if not I will have to wait very long, just like the Olevel Chinese oral. I waited freaking long because I was the last one -.-. And the good thing is that it starts at 230PM tomorrow! I can wake up late. (: Isn't that good? Haha. Hope that the picture will not be something I cannot interpret. Hope that the conversation will be on some topic which I touched on before! Hope. I'm practising oral now, and I keep stuttering. Pray hard that everything will go smoothly.

Maybe I shall go to TJ Macs after oral to study tomorrow. I want to finish my compositions, but I'm out of ideas.

Let me tell you something. Get away, don't bother me, I don't want to see you or hear you anymore! Because, I just don't get what you're trying to tell me. You are doing just the opposite of what you told me. Bye.

I tasted it.

2009-05-30T19:33:00.002+08:00

An early day. Woke up early to go to west coast plaza for the extra tuition. Did one paper, but 我的心就不在那儿... Nevermind. I'm slacking alot today! Only did chemistry. Haiz. Shall buck up. Parents coming back tomorrow! Being alone at home is abit... lonely. Lol.

Sometimes, it's better to not know something than know something. I rather not see it. I rather not know it. I rather nothing happened before. I just want everything to be like before. Your words seem so real at that point of time, but thinking back now, it's just a dream. Yes, you deceived me. Do you still remember what you told me? It's okay anyway. All of you behaved the same way... Why do I always thought of it. 为什么我要活在你的影子里?

Went to Taman Jurong Food Centre just now. Walked one round, and went to buy dinner at another place instead. I don't know why, but I just developed a weird feeling towards the food centre.

Seriously, it tasted sour.

empty

2009-05-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

Last day of school in term2. Quite slack, just that we received a pile of holiday homework. I just reached home after a long day. Parents are away now, and the house looks empty. Something just seem to be wrong. However, I feel very relax like this.

Tomorrow is PTC and obviously me parents will not be going. But I'll be going to school to get some books in the locker and wait for xinyi too. Hope that I can take a look of my report book. Going out tomorrow, shall have a day free of books.

Today is 端午节, and I'm eating dumpling at home alone...

I feel so tired to type. Shall post more tomorrow, byebye!

Interesting

2009-05-27T21:56:00.003+08:00

I seriously think that today was interesting, maybe it's because I looked at things a little differently today.

我发现403 班其实还挺可爱的。就拿今天当例子吧。在华文课后的五分钟的空挡，我看见了一个挺有趣的情景。玉婷和蔡欣仪等人正围在白板面前，你一句我一句地说道：“我比较爱 Mrs Chang!” 而且还争先恐后地在白板上和 Physics 有任何关系的字眼上画心形图案。他们看上去就像粉丝们正在为偶像而抓狂! 蛮好笑的... 在同一时间，陵缘等人正在一旁对新加坡的H1N1新病例议论纷纷，看上去似乎挺认真的. 至于其余的人，不是在教室外有说有笑，就是在教室里轻声细语. 这一幕对我来说很有趣...

I pen down everything after that. Haha. Parents leaving Singapore tomorrow and going to find my sister in Vietnam. Bon Voyage! And my sis is very excited. -.- Finally some free days for me. Phew... Quite sad in some ways actually. Last day of term 2 tomorrow! Time is really travelling by a rocket.

Bye, will be back soon.

Dream on

2009-05-26T18:39:00.003+08:00

Yes, the only thing which I remembered for today's lesson is DREAM ON. Ms sathi said a whole load of things to us, but the only words I remembered was dream on. Laugh out loud. Yes, dream on to get into HCJC or NJC. At that point of time, I told myself that I shall go to poly instead. Don't set the target too high... Abit demoralising but at least she made sense.

Holiday homework started to come in PILES BY PILES. Shall try to finish. But with remedials and tuition, will we have time to study on top of completing the homework?

我还没有找到自己要走的路...

Lying flat on the floor

2009-05-23T20:28:00.002+08:00

I'm tired, I feel like sleeping. Oh my god, I feel like a pig. Went to school early in the morning, and I finished my Amaths in school! I fell asleep last night while doing. Haha. I feel very slack!

ACPC today, congratulations to all 4007. I didn't really do anything today, other than wrapping up the gifts with Liling. Seriously, there's really nothing to do!

I'm halfway through the compo now. Damn tired... sort of like having mental block. Getting abit frustrated because I don't know what to write and I'm super tired. I shall go sleep soon. Bye! To be continued...

2009-05-22T21:34:00.002+08:00

Gotten back all the papers. Disastrous. I think my L1R5 exceeded 20. I think I'm only good at language and the most Biology and Humanities, the other subjects: No hope. Maybe we just have to say "Work harder next time", but it's not going to work! Okay, just study harder. -.-. Start working now, study and study and of course more studying. Must be more prepared during prelims! Add more oil. Yup...

I'm very very tired! Staying in sch everyday. Chionging the BSC presentation video, finally done with it on Thursday morning! Although the video is not very good, I hope that you all enjoyed it. Mr Benny Ng came to our class to explain the Chinese compo thing. Yup, yesterday and today. I kind of understood what he said. I don't know what to say already! My mind's blank. I was abit dazed during tuition yesterday night. Lol. Too tired I supposed.

Tomorrow is ACPC. Have to reach school quite early. Shall go and do my homework now! Tons of them. (:

那颗星星已不再像以前那样亮着

2009-05-17T21:30:00.002+08:00

Went to West Coast Plaza early in the morning for an extra tuition lesson. I wasn't in the mood to do any papers at all! Oh no, I've been facing the laptop since 1 in the afternoon. My eyes are tired. Haha. I suddenly missed my sister, I just want to say that I love her.

There's school tomorrow, papers are coming to us! Like some demons. So scary! LOL.

发生了这么多事, 我已经累了.
I wanna fly to the moon...

2009-05-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

End of midyears. Happy and sad at the same time. I admit that I didn't really do well this time round, I'm afraid of the results now. I didn't even complete my chinese paper, when Chinese is suppposed to be my most confident subject.

Actually, after midyears, I really have nothing better to do. For the past few weeks were all just studying, now, what can I do? Slack through the day! Went back to school today for NFAC training. Worried. But, it wouldn't help even if I am, because it wouldn't help anything at all. It takes two hands to clap. If they want to behave like this, nobody can help them.

You don't do what you preach. So save your breath for other things.

over

2009-05-15T23:44:00.001+08:00

Midyears is over, time to have a break. I shall update when I have the time then. Tomorrow!

2009-04-25T19:03:00.002+08:00

What is the meaning of this? Saying that we are sluts and treat it as nothing happened before? Why don't I call you bitch and treat it as if nothing happened before?

Definition of slut [Credits to dictionary.com]:

1. a dirty, slovenly woman.
2. an immoral or dissolute woman; prostitute.
3. A person, especially a woman, considered sexually promiscuous.
4. A woman prostitute.
5. a woman adulterer
6. A female dog; a bitch.

Were these what you meant? You knew that you were in the wrong. You knew it very clearly that you said something wrong, but why aren't you apologising to us? We paid school fees to go to school and let the so called educators to say that we're sluts? We actually paid for all these. Yes, we paid to let people scold us.

We want an apology. You said that we are sluts, which was really an insult to us, girls. We were really angry and frustrated about what you said, but where is the apology? Just because we are students and you're a teacher, and you thinks that there's no need to apologise to us, is it?
You always tell us to set a good example for our juniors to follow, but are you setting a good example for us to follow? NO! If you aren't, why are you expecting us to do so? 你身为老师, 却没有树立好榜样, 那我们身为学生的, 又怎样以身作则? 你就只有一大堆的废话. Is this how all the teachers behave? Or was this what YOUR teacher thought you last time?

Why are you picking on 403? Our attire that day was pretty perfect. Why didn't you catch all those pupils whose attire are not perfect too ad skipped all the way to 403 and catch people from our class? You knew very clearly that there are still many more people having the wrong attire, but you didn't catch them! You said that 403 is like hell. If we are like hell, I think you're nowhere better!

In the end, you blamed us for spreading that you said that we are slut. It's a fact what! If you were afraid that we will spread it, then why do you in he first place have to insult us like this? 心虚了啊? We are also human beings like you and we have rights too! Why don't you change your name to slut? Since you love it so much right?

So this is what nanhua has became. We spent 4 years in nanhua, in a school which thinks that we are sluts. Is this what the school thinks that we are? Is this just what the school is trying to tell us? We used to love the school, we used to...

WE DEMAND AN APOLOGY! From you, green tree!

39 degree celsius

2009-04-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

I'm sick! Today's the third day and I haven't recover yet. Dengue? HFMD? Laugh out loud. Maybe I just want to let out everything at one go? Aiya, I don't know how to say. Something like 一次过爆发出来. Very 辛苦 okay! Haiz. Going to Midyear already!

I had MC yesterday and I slept for the whole day! Heard from the class that something classic happened yesterday? I don't know what happened though.

It was a tough day today, at least for me. So difficult to concentrate in class! Shouldn't have come to school since my MC includes today. I think Mr Kieu almost chased me home in the morning? Haha. Well, xuewei is sick! ): I just reach home okay! I'm super tired!

Shall go do my homework now, one big pile waiting for me! Byebye!

Another wednesday, seems weird.